Thodargirathu :-)

This blog has completed its 2 years and entering into its third year of existence. I used to read blogs after its introduction to me from one of my friend. I never intend to blog myself and was just reading to know what they are & what they write. One evening at office when I was about to leave, was called by my above friend and asked what is the name you like for your blog? I said are you kidding, I am trying to know its spelling and you are asking me to write. But due to the fact that I didn’t want to deny abruptly and for a moment thought what if, I just accepted it. I didn’t even know how to post and what to write. But something I wanted to do and thought why not this. After creating the account, my friend in front of him asked me to write something, which was like nightmare. Nothing came to my mind and was thinking is this yet another crap in my life I am going to do like all before I have done. Just wrote a self welcome note to myself which when I read now I start laughing, not that I have grown up in blogging\writing but thinking of my sheer ignorance.

To pen it’s really tough and the stuff in it is more important. It’s like everybody tells a story for a movie but when Manirathnam or Shankar says it has its own dimension. The carving of the script is an art and everybody doesn’t get that easily. I have written many craps here and few here & there good ones according to me. Always in my case it happens like doing something and getting something as an end result. I intend to write but its turns out to be something else in a different shape. I feel I haven’t got still the art of writing. But it doesn’t stop me writing, I wish I continue as long this excitement and enthusiasm lives up.

The moment I post something, it’s like oh yeah! Dude something is done for the day!! This excitement still exists and hasn’t drained away which makes me to write more. I don’t have huge readers but a handful of them and most of them whom I knew. Just because I marketed myself saying to them I have a blog and when find time please do read. After they read the thrill remains till they say “yaPa blog pathen naalla iruku :-0”. I get surprised when I see new readers on the comments and think myself people read your writing also...Hmm.

Many things I learnt from this blog and one fact I understood is I am very bad time manager. Yup! Its sheer fact and you can see it on the below recent posts. I really don’t do time management well and end up in not writing a post at least for a week. I always hang it in to do list of mine and keep postponing it for days. Also prioritization of work is horrible and just goes by what comes for that time. I am pretty sure that this isn’t going to work in long run and has to completely rework from scratch.

Might be it happens for others but it happens for me at times regularly. That is suddenly I think what to write, is it really worth to someone or myself to scribble something, what if I don’t post something, Dude lots of others are really writing well and if you don’t write no one cares, really is this something good for me, am I having any meager skill to write, is it worth spending time??? All these rise within me and falls as time pass by. Suddenly I get tempestuous and start reading other blogs which I read regularly. Then come back and see my archives to see what mistakes are carved carefully by me :-( I have cursed myself many times when not writing a post or not writing it properly. It needs huge amount of effort and perseverance. It’s not a one day job nor comes out of teaching. But something stays on within me and still this one exists for its third year…